The perfect storm. You know it is coming. You feel it under your skin, you see it with your eyes, and you hear its’ frightening sounds. How to prepare yourself for this perfect storm? As a perfectionist, type A, and OCD type of person I would like to be perfectly prepared for it. I would like to know every counter remedy for each of the chemo side effects, know what food and supplement is going to soothe my angel’s pains and ease her sorrows, and know what words to use to calm her fears. Oh, how unprepared I feel for this storm that is coming in exactly three days from now…I wish I had more time. I am wrapping up my work and making time to just research and get to know this perfect storm inside and out, but it is coming before I am able to even grab my essentials and get to the shelter. I feel like it is overwhelming me with its’ power and swallowing me with its’ size. I am trying to catch my breath and stay ahead of it. I am really doing my very best, but it feels like it is catching up to me and its’ shadow hovering over my head like a dark cloud just ready to release the mighty thunder. And then I realize that I am not alone. I have you, my friends, family, and community and I will need you to survive. I have learned over the years that even though I tend to get done a lot alone, I need to ask for help when I feel alone and overwhelmed. So here it goes: I imagine having an army behind me helping me fight the perfect storm. If you are up for it please leave a comment with the special forces group that you would like to join and THANK YOU.
ANGELS: moral, emotional, and spiritual support
FOODIES: nutrition, cooking, recipes, supplements, grocery shopping
CLOWNS: fun, entertainment, decorations, positivity, music, laughter (for Bianka mainly but for us too:-)
KALIE FANS: play dates, driving to places, picking up and dropping off from day care, love, fun, and attention for our #2
PHOTOGRAPHERS: taking pics and capturing this perfect storm, telling the story through pictures
ON CALLERS: 24/7, what ever needed, when ever needed, errands, last minute requests
I am scared, but I am still picturing my beautiful bride on her wedding day almost every day. I see her happy smiling face and I know she will be all right. She will survive. She will live. She will get married. She will love. She will be healthy. She will remain a cancer survivor.
Stephanie said:
Yes, we are here to support you, Anamator! You can call on me for whatever you like, though I would guess I’d be best in the ‘Angel’, Kalie fan, and On Call 24/7 roles. Much love always…
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Joanna said:
Ana,
I’d love to be on your foodie team, and if John and I can be of other miscellaneous help, please tell us.
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Jessica Hill said:
Ana,
Sign me up for On-Callers, Clowns, Angels, Foodies, Kalie Fan (and her cute little gooza (sp? haha))…I’m not good with a camera, but that group too!! You know you can call on me for whatever is needed at whatever time. Things will turn out fine and I’ll be dancing at Bianka’s wedding too ❤ She WILL be a cancer survivor and we will support you all at every turn in the road.
With all the love and support possible,
Jessica ❤ ❤ ❤
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Sestra said:
We are definitely On Callers, as well as all the other troops. 🙂
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Amy Moore said:
We will do whatever we can to support you
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Katherine Falen said:
On call for anything you need–yardwork, transportation, food, distraction, anything at all.
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karen varsha 404-272-7330 said:
Ana,
My strength is photography and I would be glad to help photograph your journey. If you have enough photographers, I am glad to be a foodie or on caller. This is such a great idea. I am glad you have some people giving you advice on what you need for the coming months. I look forward to hearing from you. Peace, Karen Varsha
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Jenny Kennedy said:
You know we are always ready for play dates on Thursdays and weekends . I can also reach out to any medical friends in regards to nutrition and alternative supportive therapies. By the way , I haven’t told you yet , but you are a beautiful writer . You should seriously consider putting this all into a book. Xoxo.
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Kristen Davis said:
Ana,
I live in Kirkwood and would love to help in any of the ways you mentioned. My family and I will be praying for peace, comfort, and strength for your sweet Bianka. Please do call on me. Prayers, prayers. Kristen Davis
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Anci said:
Thank you Kristen. We really appreciate it and will stay in touch for sure. It is nice to have people close by that are willing to help:-)
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jjcredi said:
Angels are everywhere. We’ll call in a few extra.
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jjcredi said:
Angels. 4 of us. Ranging in age from 8mo to 37y.
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Erin said:
Ana-I’m on kallie duty ;). Thomas can also help with the photography if you need, just let me know what you had in mind. Also, please pass my number to your mom if she needs anything while your in the hospital. Hugs to you.
Erin
P.s. You are an awesome writer!
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Katie Hughes said:
Ana- my family is here for you. As I mentioned today, I will text when I am headed to the store in case you need anything…. And whatever else we can do to help. You have my number!
We all love and support you.
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Srebrenka Robic said:
Will be thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts and energy every day! We are off to Croatia in a few days. Let me know if there is anything you would like from there, I ‘d be happy to bring it to you. After that, I will plan to help with some grocery shopping. Hugs!!!
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Anci said:
Srebrenka, little books in Croatian and Croatian children’s music are always a great treat for Bianka- thank you!
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Raiza said:
Please sign me up! I’m part of your army. Writte my name for all the groups you have. Call my name. I will be there.
Love.
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Kristin Nabers said:
Ana, I know we don’t know each other well, but I have been following all your posts and thinking of you and Bianka every single day. I would honored to help with any photography that you need.
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Sekeia said:
Huge hugs! We are most certainly available whenever you are in need. Much love, support and prayers. Sekeia
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Galit said:
Ana anytime for anything! Love you guys! You and Bianka will win!
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Ivona said:
Ana – we are here, anytime, anything you need.
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